Wednesday, July 6, 2011

the world wasn't shaking, it was me

Her steady hand drew dark brown eyeliner around my eyes, as I stared into the darkness of my closed eyelids and thought about how I could avoid breakfast. "Open slightly," she said, as my other friend watched. A dark purple color flooded my vision until it felt as if my eyes were closed again and I wondered how I could feel so nauseous if I had not eaten.

I recalled nothing else, until I vaguely felt the world shaking and shaking, I wished I could find something to hold onto, to tie me to this world, because I was sure I would be shaken right off. I heard voices calling, screaming my name. My eyes opened, and I was on the floor beside the dresser, on my hands and knees with my friends knelt down beside me with worried faces. They told me what I couldn't remember; I had passed out and my entire body had shook for a minute, similar to a seizure.

They forced me to go to the emergency room. I wonder what I'm doing to my health, and I wonder if I should care more. In all honesty, I tried to feel concern for my body, but I really do think that it was an interesting experience.

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  1. Oh my goodness! I hope you're OK! Fainting is one thing but a seizure doesn't sound good at all. I really hope it's nothing to worry about.
    Be careful gorgeous girl,
    B X

  2. That really doesn't sound good, I hope you're ok!
    Take care of yourself!
    Lottie x

  3. Oh, dear, passing out is not a good sign. I hope you're okay! I get what you mean about the interesting experience, though. And I always get this sick feeling that if I'm unwell enough to pass out, I must be doing something right.

  4. Please take care of yourself hon, sending you wishes of strength

    Love AJ xx

  5. Hope you're alright hun! I'm so glad to have you back, a good way to avoid passing out is to keep packets of salt with you and if you feel close you just nip a bit under your tongue to raise your blood pressure slightly. I have very low blood pressure and that's what my doctor told me to do, you end up sometimes dreading the salty taste but it does work.

  6. that doesnt sound good, please stay healthy sweetie! xx

  7. That sounds scary, please be careful! :) xx

  8. I'm so sorry, hun! That's really not good and as cool as I know it is perhaps you should try eating just a tad bit more? If nothing else, eat pickles. They're loaded with salt but extremely low in calories so they'll help you not to faint and you won't have to feel so bad. I hope everything is okay!

  9. wow hun that doesnt sound good at all take care of urself i dont want nething to happen to u i have paassed out alot but i never shook like a sieizure let me know if u ok please

  10. Oh my God! That doesn't sound good at all, my love! A seizure? I will be worried to death. I hope everything is fine...:c I've fainted dozens of times before but a seizure is another thing :( I hope you're okay.
    ^__^ as for your reply, I'm always happy. :D or try to be in my case. :3 thanks.

  11. I hope that you're all right! Don't scare your friends, I'm sure they're already worried with the weight loss. Let them take care of you okay? Don't hurt yourself, too much, or at all if you can help it.

    Stay strong and healthy <3

  12. That sort of thing has happened to me before, it runs in my family. Its freaking scary, and I'm glad you were ok. I'm glad you liked my comments and didn't find me obsessive and stalkerish. My blog is at if the link doesn't work let me know so I can figure out why.

  13. That sounds so scary. Please be as safe as you can. Eat a little more if possible. Fainting is one thing (while still not good) but seizures? You must be doing some serious damage to your body. Please please please be safe.

  14. Omg hun i read this ns nearly cried...i cnt imagine hw yur friends felt and im nt gna be a hypocrite nd tel yu to do sumfing i wudnt do lol i understand wat yu mean bwt enjoying it tho..:) x

  15. OH NO.
    I sincerely hope you are okay, my love!
    I do not want anything bad to happen to you. :(
    Please be careful.
    Stay positive, stay beautiful! <3

  16. D: be careful and stay safe hun,
    That sounded like a terrifying experience, but intriguing at the same time...
    Don't be too harsh on yourself with eating
    Good luck<3

  17. AH girlie ): you have to be careful! and be safeeeeee please?!


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