Does anyone out there have an ana buddy? Does it help with restriction or fasting and getting/giving support? I'm struggling currently, so I was wondering if a texting buddy would help.
After sitting in front of a damn honey bun (340 calories) for an hour and thirty minutes, (part of an etiquette event), I ultimately didn't eat it, which may have led to my loss of willpower later. Binged later, I got upset when I reached 650 calories, because I was supposed to stay under 600, and decided to just fuck it, and continue, which obviously made the situation worse.
The bright side to this situation is that you guys can use me as reverse thinspo. Don't become like me, ever.
Comment Replies: Thank you all so much for your comments! ALL of you are amazing, beautiful people inside AND out, I hope you won't feel the need to self-harm, because none of you deserve to feel pain.
Dani- It makes me sad that you hurt yourself, but that makes me a hypocrite. You're such a strong person, I admire your strength very much. I can relate to pain reminding me that I'm alive. I know we'll both reach our goals, and I wish you luck! :)
Lucy Hart- I desperately need a digital scale, I want to see a completely accurate number. I'm glad you stopped cutting, you're a beautiful person, you don't deserve to feel pain. I hope you have an amazing day! :)
thin_thighs- I'm very glad you aren't a cutter anymore, I'm not either. I'm happy you love your parents, it's great to have supportive family. After my binge today, I doubt I'm 104.5 pounds anymore, but that's completely my fault. I hope you have a lovely day! :)
Almost Alex- You're right, they're battle scars, I think they show strength and bravery. I hope you don't self-harm anymore, but I guess we all have a way of dealing with life. Thank you so much for commenting! :)
Kitty- I'm glad you don't cut anymore, you don't deserve to feel pain. It does make sense, cutting helped me keep the pain in control also, but I'm happy I stopped. Thank you for commenting!
alice ana- Your boyfriend sounds very caring and sweet, he's a keeper! It makes me feel less alone, knowing I wasn't the only one to self-harm in kindergarden. We also got the ice in a ziplock bag at my school! Wanting attention is natural, we can't spend our whole lives invisible. :) Thank you for your comment, don't worry, I adore long comments!
-christy- - I'm really glad you stopped cutting for a while, hopefully soon things will get better and you will quit again. I loved seeing blood also, it was so dark and red, and it made me feel like everything wrong was right again, but not anymore. My scars are gone now thankfully. Thank you for your comment! :)
Just Jessica- A lion is a great tattoo! I always thought lions symbolize strength also. Thank you for your comment, have an amazing day! :)
kes- I admire your 20 hour fasts, do you find them a little easier or harder now that you're doing them for weightloss also? Burning scares me, but I love fires. I hope you've stopped cutting. You're a strong person, stay strong, stay beautiful! :)
unbeautiful- I'm glad you've been trying to stop cutting. I still scratch myself, mostly on my stomach, but I need to stop. I hope you stop, you're an amazing person, you don't deserve to feel pain. Congrats on the 2 months! Thanks for your comment! :)
ELLE-usive Dream- I'm sending you a hug, I really hope you won't need to self harm anymore soon! I haven't read the Bell Jar, I'll definitely check it out. Stay strong, stay beautiful, I hope you have a wonderful day, you deserve it! :)
Ana's Addict- I was born 5 days ahead of you, in February! Aren't you also glad you weren't born on Valentine's Day? :) Thank you so much for your kind words about my blog, your blog is definitely one of my favorites, I love your writing style and determination! Emotional and mental self-harm is just as painful as physical harm, in my opinion. I hope you won't be too hard on yourself, maybe you could try treating yourself like you treat your best friend or someone you love! :) Thanks for the comment!
lulu- I haven't watched Thirteen, I might after I go through all the movies in my Netflix queue. :) Cutting did help me deal with emotional pain, but I'm glad I stopped. I'm happy you don't cut often, and that your antidepressants are helping. You're a lovely person, you deserve a lovely day! :)