I used to crave death, think about suicide all day and it would haunt me in my dreams. Like many others, I would wonder for hours on which method to take, I couldn't choose, hanging gun poison drowning pills knives. I'm glad I never chose.
A friend of one of my very good friends recently committed suicide, she died in the hospital. I never knew her, never met her, never will get the chance to become her friend.
It made me wonder how many people are silently struggling to find the will to live each day, not telling anyone. It truly breaks my heart and makes me want to do anything to stop someone from taking their life.
Because even if you think that nobody will miss you, that nobody will cry, you're wrong. Someone will. I know for a fact, because I will cry for you, miss you, endlessly wonder why you're gone. I cried for that girl, I cried for the guy I once knew, because they would never live or laugh or love again, because their family and friends were distraught, because I cared, because I never knew what they were going through. Many, many people in your life will wish that they had told you how much you mean to them, wonder if you ever knew how much they loved you, wish they had done something. Please don't do that to them.
If you ever think you're worthless, that you don't belong, you're wrong. I'll list a million reasons why you deserve to live.
So promise me you will never take your own life, promise me you'll never commit suicide. Please. Promise that you'll ask for help, that you'll tell someone. Because things will always get better, taking your life is not the answer.
I hope none of you could relate to this post, because I hope that you are all happy and free of suicidal thoughts. If you ever need anything, someone to listen, I promise I'll always be here for you, even if you don't know me, even if we just met. Email me if you need to talk.