Thursday, April 14, 2011

making cakes feels ironic

Cake is like a pretty decoration, not for eating.

This afternoon, I had an insane craving, an intense need to cook something. I wanted to make something delicious, something that tasted absolutely amazing, and not eat a single bite of it. So I made a cake in the microwave, feeling very ironic the entire time. You're supposed to avoid food, not make it, I thought. I gave it to my sister and she loved it. And I didn't taste a single bite.

Do you cook for fun? Do you have any favorite low calorie recipes?

Recipe: (Warning: do not eat! High calories, (approximately 200) this is just for cooking cravings!)
2 tablespoons flour
1 tablespoon sugar
1 teaspoon sugar
1/4 teaspoon baking powder
2 teaspoons cocoa powder
1 pinch salt
1/4 teaspoon vanilla extract
2 tablespoons milk
add any random things you want (I added semi-sweet chocolate chips and chunks of Oreos.)
1. Mix all the ingredients together in a bowl, any order you want, stir very well.
2. Spray a non-stick spray into a microwave safe cup.
3. Pour cake batter into the cup.
4. Microwave for 30 seconds. Then microwave in intervals of 10 seconds, checking to make sure it hasn't overcooked and turned rubbery.
5. Add frosting on top, to make it pretty
It's obviously not high-quality, as it was made in the microwave in about a minute, but it satisfies cravings for cooking. And it's fun to decorate the cake! 

I absolutely love cooking food, and not eating it. It feels productive and it makes me happy when other people enjoy what I made. I also feel in control, because I refuse to eat anything I cooked.

Comment Replies:
EWC- I'm glad you're going to start wearing one! :) It's my hope that I'll meet another person on the street or in a random place wearing an ED bracelet. Thank you for commenting!
jackie- Wishlets sound like a great idea! I might make one or get one. Yours broke, because you have the strength and determination to reach your goals yet, and you're getting there. :) Thank you so much for your comment! 
Tai- I agree, the bracelets remind us that we are not alone. What color do you wear? Thanks for your comment! 
ToxicwastEDgal- Your bracelet will be gorgeous! I love the bone charm and feather charm idea, they are wonderful ways to symbolize your goals. Thank you for commenting! :)
anonymous- (sorry, couldn't get the hearts in your username to appear!) I didn't realize that many people outside of the ED community knew the meanings of the bracelets. Thank you, I'll be careful! :)
Nicole S.- That's a smart idea! I keep a separate white ribbon in my jewelry box for measuring my waist. My goal is to have a waist smaller than the ribbon length. Thank you for commenting! :)

I hope you all have had an amazing day, because you all deserve it. :)


  1. i also made one for one of my friends who is a bulimic
    i love being with her because i dont have to hide my crazy

  2. Great job resisting the cake, love :) I might try it with my roommate during the weekend, thanks for the recipe!

    Stay strong, you're doing wonderfully.

  3. First off, I'd like to say that I love that thinspo pic.
    Second, I always cook food just for fun. I live with seven other people so I just give it to them. I'm so proud that you resisted the cake! I'm not so sure if I'd be able not to sneak a little bite. Great job! You should be very proud of yourself!
    Good luck hun!

  4. You are amazing for not eating that cake..just incredible. i prefer to avoid things like frosting and cake major binge foods.
    you will reach your goals in no time at all!

  5. Wow, absolutely amazing job for not eating the cake! You are much stronger than I. :) I really enjoy baking cookies and btownies etc. But for me, they are too much of a temptation so I avoid it like the plague. Keep strong girl! :)

  6. Totally amazing your cake!!! BEAUTIFUL!!!! I love it! :D
    Wao! You are super strong! I'd libe to be like you :)
    Thanks very much for your comment, it made me really happy!!!
    Love, princess :D

  7. I'm glad I found your blog, you inspire me. I want to make or get a pink bracelet also.

  8. I actually love to cook and bake. It's one of my favorite things to do. Last night I made baked chicken mastoccioli for my family and I only gave in a little. I have to taste my final product to make sure I don't kill anybody! LOL. At least you held off eating your finished product. Keep staying strong lovely!

  9. I always have the hardest time eating food I've cooked myself. I know its made exactly the way I like it, with other peoples food I can usually find some flaw, or something that I would have done differently.


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