Tomorrow morning, I'm headed to the beach with my friend (Sue) and her family. Really excited about that, I need a vacation so badly. Made cookies for them, didn't eat a single one. Still 104.5 pounds, so seeing my body in a bikini will be good for me, make me avoid any food, food is bad, it'll hurt my body.
I burnt 732 calories by exercising today. I love the feeling after an intense workout.
Ever since it, (do not read the link, or the next few sentences if you are likely to be triggered), I've hated, despised the feeling of human touch. Everything. Hugs with friends, holding hands, accidental brushes. When my friends try to give me a hug, I shrink back, I don't return the hug, because I can feel his hands all over me again. Even when my piano teacher was moving my hand into a certain position, I almost blacked out, I couldn't breathe. But today, I want to be close to another person, to feel someone else's warmth. I crave touch. Not necessarily in a sexual way, I just want, need what I've been missing hating avoiding for a very long time, too long.
SMILE, you deserve to. :)
Comment Replies: By the way, is anyone's comments not showing up? There's some that keep ending up in the spam box. I reply to every comment, including those left on old posts.
kes- Me too, I'm also searching for more blogs to read! I get sad when they haven't been updated in forever, it makes me wonder where they are now. Thanks for commenting!
GraceyJ- I adore shopping, I'm excited to buy a few more shorts and dresses in a lower size. :) I hope you have a great time shopping when you drop a few sizes, which will be soon! Thanks for commenting!
-kat- Thank you so much for your comment! I'm very happy that everyone is so kind in this community, it really impacts our lives with positivity. I'm glad people take the time to comment, so I try to comment back! :)
FeatherWeight- Thank you so much for your comment, it made me smile. :) I hope you have an amazing day, you deserve it!
Cara- I'm glad that we all have our own unique perspectives. :) Variety is the spice of life, according to the writing on a mug I once saw. Thanks for commenting!
Almost Alex- I'm happy you're prioritizing and I hope you get your paper done! Thanks for commenting! :)
TheJDawg01- Thanks, I'm glad that you think we're friendly. I had a good laugh about your post today. Thanks for the comment! :)
Just Jessica- I'm sure you are very strong. :) Thank you for your comment, I hope you like the blog links!
Moonlighit Mistress- Thanks for following, and the comment! :) Have an amazing day!
Little Jo- I didn't know green meant fasting, or the other colors, I might make a green bracelet. I'm glad you're wearing an ED bracelet, I hope more people do, so we can identify others and know we're not alone. Thanks for commenting!
alice ana- Thank you very much for commenting! I started mine for those reasons also. :) Ahhh I'm insanely jealous, please tell me all about the concert when you go! And take pictures please!
Ana's Addict- Thanks so much for commenting! I'm glad you like the page, I'm sure your blog and the others listed there will help inspire and motivate others. :) I agree, I''m proud to be part of this amazing community.
Tempest- A thousand thank-yous for your kind words. Your support and sympathy means so much to me. I will remember your words "Some scars are ok". Thank you, thank you so much, I needed this understanding and help tonight. I hope you have a wonderful day, you deserve it!
I've added more blog links to the Thousand Voices page, I hope you enjoy reading them! :)