I can feel the weakness inside me, it's growing stronger, getting bigger. I'm so tired, there's no energy left in me. My body feels dead but my mind is more alive than ever. Delirious thoughts rip through me and emotions overflow from a too small cup. Why isn't my mind shutting down. I want to yell, to scream, but my throat is painfully sore and raw. I'm anger desperation loneliness sadness hate fear panic depression exhaustion all rolled up and molded into one messy single emotion. I'm pathetic.
Help me I want someone with me, someone to sit with me while I cry, someone to hand me tissues and pat my back and lie and say "Everything's alright." I don't want anyone near me, to see me like this. My insanity must stay hidden, nobody can see it, it's not real if I can't see it, if I don't acknowledge it, if they don't know. I want to stay hidden, I'm not meant for this world, it's overwhelming. I'm crazy, crazy, insane. I'm a mess. It's one of those days.
How are you guys feeling today? Have you ever felt literally insane? How do you deal with it?
Comment Replies: Sorry, I'm a bit messed up today, I'll try to reply to everyone in my normal manner.
EWC- Thank you so much for your comment! :)Yup, it's always nice to be reminded that not everyone sucks.
Unknown- I think it's very cool that you were in a film! May I have your autograph? :) That's so sweet of the people who offered help to you. Thank you for commenting, sorry that this post is negative, usually I try to add in some positivity!
Ana's Addict- It's not sad, you deserve those compliments. :) Accept them with pride. :) I wish I had a digital scale. Congrats on weighing "E"! ;) Thank you very much for your comment!