NO. NO. NO!!!
YOU ARE FUCKING INSANE.
I wanted so badly to yell that at him. To make him realize he's wrong, wrong, wrong, WRONG. I understand that for some people who are very athletic, they do need 2, 500 calories daily. But he was saying that everyone needs almost 3, 000 disgusting calories a day.
According to a calculator online, http://www.freedieting.com/tools/calorie_calculator.htm, my body only needs 1, 500 calories each day, even if I'm doing little or no exercise. But I prefer staying under 500.
Will eating 2, 500 calories make me look like her? I highly doubt it.
I binged today. :( 1, 400 calories. Holy crap. It's painful to write that number. I'm so ashamed of myself. I feel incredibly, awfully guilty. And I should. I ate a bunch of granola bars, chocolate pretzels, and bread. I'm a complete failure. Oh well I can start pursuing a dream of becoming a reverse thinspo model. :( The whole time I was gorging myself on anything I could find, the other half of me was yelling at me. Do you want your thighs to jiggle when you walk?! Why are you doing this?? You're stronger than this! Food is nasty! You are what you eat, so YOU are nasty! Stop it! Now! This is why you're fat!! Think about how you'll look in a swimsuit! This is all your fault! You have no control!
I wish I had listened. Now I'm sad, angry, and fat. That's not a good combination.. I'm so sorry everyone. :( I will do better tomorrow, I promise! And if I fail again, I'll go apply for a job as a model for reverse thinspo.
How do you avoid binges? Do you look at thinspo, talk to yourself, etc? What do you eat during binges? Why can't I just binge on celery or something.. :(
Thank you all so much for your comments on my last post! You guys are amazing!
Jennie- Thanks for the comment!! Good luck with your goal! I know you can get there. :)
Maddi- Congrats on going down 4 sizes! That's awesome! We'll both get to size 0s, I'm sure. :)
jackie- Thanks for commenting! Yup jeans are a great way to measure progress. :)
Skylar- I'm so jealous of you for being a size 0! Size 0 = gorgeous! Thanks for the comment! :)
Neeska- Awh thanks for the comment! :) We'll both be tiny soon!! Stay strong! <3
Anna Rose- Thank you for commenting! Good luck on your goal! I'm positive you'll get there!
Alexa_K- Thanks for your comment! :) I am so so jealous of you! Congrats on being a size 0/00! You inspire me!
GraceyJ- Thank you very much! :) That made me smile!
ToxicwasEDgal- Congrats on going down a size! It means you have great self-control! You'll get even lower!! :)
Thank you for reading my blog! :) Stay strong! <3