Like an archaeologist, I want to uncover all these bones one by one, buried in a sea of dirt. Bones are truth, covered by lies.
My skeleton is the framework, the structure of myself. Bones represent death for some, I think of them as life. Feeling my hipbones, my ribs, my collarbones, reassures me that I am alive.
Bones seem fragile, yet they are strong and powerful, like the transparent girls that show their skeletons like walking x-rays. I'll reveal these beautiful bones, so finally, I can truly see myself.
Comment Replies: I've been crying off and on today and yesterday, but your comments moved me to tears, of happiness, and I hope those will be the last tears I cry for a very long time. Thank you, I love you all.
Thin or Not- Thank you incredibly, you are so sweet! Knowing that you're only an email away if I need someone to talk to truly comforts me.
Skinny Little Me- Your support truly means the world to me, thank you so much for you kind words!
Wings to Set me Free- Thank you so much, I really do need a hug right now. You're right, I won't give my mother that power in the future.
AJ- You're really kind, thank you so much for making me feel a lot better.
CAliChica- Thank you very much for your support! You have no idea how much better I feel knowing that I'm only an email away from a fellow caring ana.
annamaria- Your advice really worked, I slept for 10 hours straight and I felt amazing in the morning. Thank you so much!
when_in_rome- Thank you very much, you're so sweet. You really brightened my day, I hope you have a lovely day as well!
alice ana- "Keep your head up, above the mirrors, above the voices in your head, just for a day." Beautifully written, I needed that! I wish the world had more people like you, thank you from the bottom of my heart. <3
Britni Marie- Thank you so much for your support, it means a lot to me! I hope you feel better also, let's fight for happiness together.
Hilly.M- I hope the chemical imbalance goes away soon! Thank you very much for all of your support, it truly means a lot to me.
Dani- I'm really glad that you understand about feeling like you've lost control over everything in life, it reminds me that I'm not alone in this, we're all struggling and fighting for what our hearts want in this life. I really hope everything turns out okay with the guy! Thank you incredibly for your kind words, I'm glad people like you exist in this world.
~christy~- You're so nice, you've made me feel much much happier today! Thank you so much for your support!
Gianni- I was sitting here reading your comment, and the realization hit me hard, you are completely right, all I need is to be perfect enough for MYSELF, I need to stop attempting to live up to my mother's impossible standards. Thank you thank you thank you, you've given me this incredible revelation, you truly have made my life brighter and better.
Marie- I'm really sorry that your mother said those things, you don't deserve that! I agree, parents seem to expect a perfect child, they seem to forget that we're human also. Thank you so much for your support!
Bones- I agree, it seems like many people have difficult relationships with their mothers, I wonder why. Thank you incredibly for your support!
Ana's Addict- Your comment made me smile, you are an amazing person, I hope to be like you one day. You remind me that I'm not alone in this struggle, the world needs more people like you. I truly appreciate your support, thank you so much!
TheJDawg01- Yup mine definitely caused problems in my childhood, she sent me away for a year or two when I was a few months old, because she didn't want me. Thank you so much for your support!
Mia- You're incredibly sweet, thank you so much for your encouraging words! You made my day much much better, I truly appreciate your support!